From Forethought to Fulfillment

Unlocking Your Consciousness

As a child and throughout my life, I have felt out of place. Many of you probably feel the same way. Were we really born here? Is this really our home? I’m sure these questions sound familiar to some of you. If so, then you are the ones I want to speak to. As I am learning how to unlock my consciousness, I would like to help you as well as much as I can.

First of all, each person has many layers of consciousness like the layers of an onion. Those layers are constructed as one interacts with their surroundings and “learns” their world, which includes but is not limited to, the laws, the nature of the sequence of events, time, and acceptable mannerisms, etc. For example, Newton’s law of “what goes up must come down” is one of first things a baby learns. What I am speaking of is the cause and effect system. Like bouncing ideas in a mainframe of consciousness, when an idea hits a wall, it bounces back. Then, in this realm of consciousness, humans think that the idea was flawed and therefore wrong or impossible. And so it builds a system of limitations and layers of consciousness.

“Where there is a will, there is a way.” It has driven some insane to find the way, but there are no impossibilities. Impossibilities are not in our encoding. I remember as a child, hearing the adults in church marveling over Moses getting water from a rock. I remember thinking, “Why is that so surprising?” It took me many years, even into adulthood to comprehend how “water from a rock” is supposed to be a “miracle.” I had the same thoughts about many other “miracles” as well, such as Jesus walking on the water and the parting of the Red Sea. Those events just didn’t seem all that miraculous. That is because those limitations are not encoded in my consciousness.

Personal Examples:
Many of you may fly in your dreams. As a child, I wanted to fly so desperately. I would run and jump on my bed over and over. I got to the point where I could “fly” for about 8 feet, always softly landing on my bed.

Not too many years ago, I was in a store. It was crowded, and I wanted to get out of there. The idea hit me to fly over the people. I lifted up, and then realized that I couldn’t get off the ground. Then I realized, “Oh yeah, I can’t fly.” But, you see, the limitation in my consciousness is not there. It seems so natural for me to think that. Why?

As a child in elementary school, I would climb the walls of the bathroom, yes walls. No one told me that I couldn’t. So, I found a way. By putting one foot on one wall, and another foot on the opposite wall, I simply walked up the walls, until my back was flat against the ceiling and my arms dangled down.

Recognizing the Layers:
Remembering who we are is a really important step to liberation from this plane of existence. Those layers of consciousness must be sifted through like peeling the layers of an onion: some of it stinks! A major key to untangling all that has been “learned” is to quit lying. People lie to themselves to the point that they don’t even realize it. People need to remember who they are!

I have learned through the years some of the levels. I will list them, but this is by no means the absolute list for everyone. Some people may have more layers (bigger onions); and some of these things that I list may not even apply to some of you. (By the way, this is takes work, lots of patience and introspection.)

1. Fear of exposure.

2. Guilt & more fear of exposure.
*Shame seems to be pervasive--in varying amounts—on nearly every level of the onion. This is especially true when a person realizes all the many ways that they lie to themselves. That in turn brings on some levels of shame of self. Even if no one else knows your thoughts, many times you may get mad at yourself after realizing how you have lied to yourself on certain issues. Just keep going through it. In the end, there is no need to fear or feel any shame!

3. Denial & Disobedient behavior to the natural encoding of your consciousness.
It causes inner struggles and blocks spiritual flow. People are often more worried about “doing the right thing.” Yet, the “right thing” varies from culture to culture and from region to region and religion to religion, etc. Don’t be afraid to do and say what you want. Find out what is natural for you, not for everyone else. Forget them!

4. Fanciful ideas.
This layer is like a Leprecon that acts distort sound reasoning and attempts to stop any further movement inwards. Although wishful thinking and the realm of possibilities is a wide-open ground in the end, I caution anyone who stops at this point. If you do, you will live in a fairy tale world of your imagination only, never evidencing anything. Therefore, my advice is “skepticism can be your best friend.”

5. Delicate balance.
Here comes a step of balancing and weighing. Sort through, in your own perception, was is real and not real according to your comfort level. You may experience some fear, guilt and frustration. Get past those uni-corny ideas or alien rapture types, and evaluate your environment. Use a lot of logic. Start to ask questions. And think about the things around you and what makes sense or not. If it doesn’t “jive” in your being, ponder why. Open your eyes to look around you and allow for free thinking.

6. Stop lying to yourself.
Don’t settle for something that doesn’t make sense to YOU! You were given all the knowledge YOU needed to know yourself before you were born. No one else has that key. Therefore, the philosophers, preachers, and even me, cannot help you. If an idea or concept doesn’t make sense and you can’t understand the language of it, then apparently it isn’t part of you. Otherwise, it would come naturally to you. This portion is about finding your Tao, so to speak. Don’t try to fit a square peg into a round hole. What makes sense to YOU? Weed through the dogma. And think about what you were born with. What knowledge were you given? I know that I was not born with the knowledge of history or any religion.

7. Solids into a liquid state.
This is a bizarre point. It is a place that you may or may not experience on your journey at different times in smaller amounts. Some people begin seeing this realm through synchronicities, which are only a tiny and elementary level of this particular layer of consciousness. However, it is important to be careful and pay attention to those things. It establishes a new basis of reality; whereby we see things as they are and not as they are withheld from view.

This realm of existence is being trapped in our imagination like a dream. And of course, it is the mission to go into the waking world. Many people think that they are awake, but are not. A person’s desire has to be strong at this level. One must follow not only their heart but also strive hard to reach through this state of “matter” (which is NOT a solid). Remember Jesus mentioned somewhere in the Gnostic texts about a man being able to reach his hand into a wall. He meant that literally.

I have some advice for you all who may enter or are at this stage. Be careful. Be very careful. I almost died over two years ago by thinking that I could do something that I wasn’t ready for.

8. Repeat Step 5 over and over.

posted by yuv_got_mel @ 8/08/2005 06:35:00 PM 1 comments

Peace between Esau and Jacob: An analogy of two poles of consciousness

As upset as I have been at the “Esau crowd,” I have still felt so much love for them. The “Esau crowd” by definition is the people who are adamantly starting wars in the name of religion or law. Whether they have a religion or not, they all seem to agree that the rules, although rigid, are perfect and should never be strayed from. They will go to the existent of sacrificing their own children if need be for their cause of “good.” Sacrifices come in many forms from the belief in crucifixion to the sacrificing of their own “fleshly desires” as they would say. It doesn’t matter if they are Christian, Muslim or Jew, etc. They strongly believe in punishment if anyone deviates from the “code of conduct.” These are the hardcore hell addicts and death penalty pushers.

I have pondered their values and beliefs; and I have found them to be good. They want perfection and an idealistic system. They make great communists, because they are the side that maintains the “rules.” They are the epitome of the laws of nature and pattern. They embody an absolute truth, as most of them know already.

I have listened to them. I have heard them say they want peace. They find peace in the rules. As angry as I have been at times, I have a deep admiration for their constant struggle for good. They will settle for nothing less. It is admirable, even though their methodology seems totally contradictory.

Even though they say they want peace, they are at war. Their reasoning is screamed daily. They feel like their rights are being intruded upon. They do not want to change, nor can they. Even if their own lives are in turmoil, through inner struggles, battling forces that consume them through their desires or their own guilt, they are the force that pushes the consciousness forward to producing a solution to find peace.

The other crowd was not given the same rules. They were not born with a built-in code of conduct per se. They may be somewhat aware of the rules, but the rules are not clicking in their heads to the point of absolute understanding. These people might be the dreamers, the artists, etc. Like myself, they are not fully understanding of the concept of “not being able to do” something. These are the people that have contributed to the evolution of technology, sciences, and the craft, among other things.

This second group is made up of angels. They want peace as well, but are in conflict with this existence. It’s just not their home.

The two forces are battling inside the womb, just like it says in Genesis 25:21~22: “…Rebecca became pregnant. But the children clashed inside of her, and when this occurred, she asked, ‘Why is this happening to me?’…”

From what I understand so far, there are two basic poles of thought that are fighting in this womb of earth. Unity will only be possible by separation: one will go to the left, the other to the right. And there will be one in the middle that holds the balance.

posted by yuv_got_mel @ 8/08/2005 06:33:00 PM 0 comments

Star Dust and Consciousness to Life to Life

June 2005---Waking Vision:
I was asked “Would you like to see the moment when the Torah was given?”

“Sure,” I replied, thinking I would be standing amongst the Israelites at the foot of the mountain.

In an instant, I was standing on top of the mountain, facing something that looked like an altar. There were only 5 to 7 (physical forms) of us on that mountain. They looked like men, but I knew they were angels.

A scroll came down in front of me and slightly to my right. Someone else was holding it. Then it was rolled out.

When that happened, I switched positions. Now standing on one end of the scroll, the scroll was rolled out in front of me like a large carpet or tongue, going out in front of me. Yet, it was about chest-high and touched the altar. The scroll was larger than the altar itself, spreading out over and beyond the sides of the altar.

I saw an angel to my left pick up a large rock. He raised his arm with the rock over the Torah scroll. He was about to break it into pieces. I screamed and yelled “No!” I spoke in protest for the Torah being destroyed, because all I felt at that moment was love for the Torah. I didn’t want to see it smashed into pieces.

Then I had the thought another attempt to destroy the Torah was about to happen. I watched and the scroll burst into flames. I was about to protest aloud again. I remember opening my mouth and gasping. But I stopped myself. In that same instant, I knew that this is the way it was going to be. I knew that even if I could stop the Torah from burning, it some other means would destroy it. So, I knew it was supposed to be destroyed by burning. And I watched in awe as the scroll went up in a trickle of smoke like incense. And the burning scroll became incense wafting up to the sky.


What it meant:
When I opened my eyes, I knew that I had seen something very special. And I knew that it was true in my heart. I was given the meaning of what I saw. I learned that the fire was speech. Speech creates waves, those waves can be seen (although not always by the naked eyes). Those waves are forms of light: fire.

When mankind—infused with the spirit of God, the Elohim—speak truth and opt for the benefit of mankind, they convert the Torah into light. The light comes from mercy: the mercy for mankind, instead of sacrifice.



Lessons:
I have recently learned that thoughts create energy. That energy is converted into matter, which is not a solid state; and it is mutable on the atomic level, being porous. As light, being truth and consciousness, move through the matter, the matter is constantly being transformed into a higher state of energy/matter. It is a process of developing a higher consciousness.

We are merely thoughts. Like star dust in a nebula, we are gases of consciousness. We develop through thought, by asking questions and desiring to become part of the light, with the ability to carry a torch which was lit from another realm.

This realm (our Milky Way and all the seen stars and planets) was seeded from another realm. This realm acts like a womb…even a stargate for consciousness to go to another level of consciousness. We are like a membrane of thought inside the mother. The mother, by the way, has many lovers. There are a lot big worlds out there.

The ancients created religions, in order to preserve the knowledge of our existence and the sciences necessary to continue our evolution into stars and more. They had an easier time being able to understand these concepts because the womb was younger. Like an old woman, the womb gets weaker.

I have learned how man is reborn. There is a tunnel, a birth canal of thought, which acts like a black hole or even a white hole. The stuff from the other unknown and unseen universe(s) is coming back to this place in order to go through some type of rebirth process. Like an alternator on a car, it is a cycle that allows for eternal life. We are all parts of those beings or thoughts from the other unknown universe(s). Our fathers had to go back into the womb again. Their/our birth is contingent on the desire and correctness of consciousness (meaning mercy).

In a mathematical analogy, if the correctness (of mercy) is not there before birth, then the answer will be changed before it is written down. Such as, I can say, 2 plus 2 is 3, but then before I write the answer down, I change it to 4. Time is sliding back and forth, etc. in order to correct itself into perfection. It’s a master program with a master programmer.

All things are good.

Realization is better than a mystical experience. Realization is tangible and the thought has control over the elements of the knowledge, having seen the light and known its’ properties of creation. The light was created before it was actually seen, because it had to travel out and around, going from the voice to the eyes and then the message was carried to the brain. The messages are electrical impulses: Light. Once the light hits the brain, it will translate all things into a tangible reality.

My suggestion is that you study the stages of stars: from birth to death and beyond. http://www.astronomynotes.com/evolutn/s1.htm


Personal Note:
I have learned that it isn’t long now.

posted by yuv_got_mel @ 8/04/2005 05:09:00 PM 0 comments